Day One After Being Told I Won’t Have Work in Four Weeks

Because this is what makes me smile. And I think I am DEFINITELY a monobrow today.

I work in theater. In case you didn’t know, plays & musicals come and go like the wind (unless you have the ridiculous luck of working on something like The Lion King or Mamma Mia). I’ve been working on my first ever hit show for the last year and almost a half, and yesterday we received notice that it’s closing in 4 weeks.

Shit.

I really thought this one was going to be around for awhile. I relaxed for the first time in my 15 year career. I even kinda thought there’d be no more suffering through the freelance grind anymore.

There are two sides of me warring. The side that wants to curl up, be angry, eat pizza, and drink too much wine. Then the side that wants to rally, be strong and carry on. Find the good in the terrifying.

Oh boy now I have time to figure out what i want to …

Oh my god I am so tired of hearing myself say anything like that.

This isn’t one of those sudden, total bologna, realization moments. It’s a marker for where I am right now. Hopefully I can look back (relatively soon) and say, “See? That wasn’t so bad.” In the meantime, who knows?

Have you had any sudden and scary changes in your life?

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    Jeanne August 23, 2013

    “Have you had any sudden and scary changes in your life?”

    Yeah…like, every day for the last 15 years!

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