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I am feeling some major Blogher envy tonight as I read all the twits and blogs of the attendees. I hope I can attend next year. For now I'm getting myself ready to watch the podcasts and maybe even take a rare trip into Second Life for some of those events.

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I have the blahs.

Drawing. Blah.

Writing. Blah.

Photography. Blah.

Staring. Blah.

Shower. Blah.

Eating. Blah.

Reading. Blah.

Television. OhEmGee, Burn Notice started it's new season! I love you Bruce Campbell! Oh and BIG BROTHER STARTS SUNDAY!! Did you see the new house is up all over the interwebs for viewing? Did you know there's a 76 year old man in the house this season? I did, I did! Oh and they're replaying all of Dexter until the new season starts. And and and....

Priorities. Blah.

Lately I've been a little more Daft and a little less Art.  This is fine but I'd really like to try and even out the roller coaster. 

Part of what I want to do is display more of my 365 project.  That's what really got the whole ball rolling for Arts & Dafts. I used to display every single doodle. I probably won't do that any more but you can still see them in my flickr set.  Instead, I'll be showcasing the drawings I like best.

Another idea I'd like to incorporate is an Etsy day where I highlight a particular Etsy page that caught my eye.

Last, a little more discussion on the growth I'm going through and how this entire project has changed my life and state of mind.

Right now I'm in a writing phase. If you've been reading for a while, you know I go through what I call "creative phases". One week I'm all about drawing, the next it's photographs, then suddenly I get the urge to knit, etc. The difficulty with a writing phase is how high I set the bar. It's unlike any of the others. I feel the overwhelming desire to add wit to every day happenings, to tell the whole story but without overdoing it like I tend to do and most of all, catch the readers attention even when discussing the mundane. 

Writing, to me, has always been at the forefront of everything I do. It's the one and only thing that I can say I've been doing since I was a small child.  I still have a bunch of my old stories and I may share some here sometime.

So in this project of growth over the last 6 months, what have I learned about my writing?  That I am capable.  I can write something people want to read. I can do it without infusing my truckers mouth into every single sentence and by golly, I can be a little funny sometimes.

Confidence has been the number one lesson of this entire process. I have gained it, found new parts about myself that I appreciate and I have learned how very important it is.  It's slowly starting to bleed into how I think about everything from my appearance to how I deal with people who are trying to jerk me around.  Not long ago, I might sit back and say "Yes Sir" while thinking "fuck you sir" . Now, I'm no longer accepting of injustices in my daily life. 

Geez, that sounds so dramatic.

So, here's to yet another phase and hopefully a little more insight into the creative madness called my life.

Well it's over. Finally. I am now officially taking a 2 month break from "real life" to concentrate on...fake life?  We closed the show last night to a packed house and it was a great run but man are we thrilled it's done.

Now here I am, stuck in a rut. It's not the normal kind of rut, it's the kind where there are so many things swimming around in my head I'm not entirely sure what to concentrate on. I'm drawing every day and getting my photographic groove back and trying trying trying to come up with something to write (other than a blog that is). Now, I know I am capable of handling all this but I can't help but worry I've been off the radar for so long that I'm starting from scratch. I worked so hard from  January to the end of April and them WHAMMO, everything was set on hold while I ran that damn show.

I am thankful for it in a way because it opened up my eyes even wider to my goals. I genuinely want to spend every day writing, drawing, photo..ging? and all sorts of other creatively things.  Look, I'm even making up words! What a wild and crazy imagination I have!

I am surrounded by lists of ideas, dreams, hopes and groceries. Okay, that's a lie. I never make grocery lists. I'm one of those picky sales shoppers who wanders every aisle. This is reason #1 why the boy and I no longer go food shopping together. Yes, there are more reasons that involve unnecessary fighting over sales, generic v. name brand and "really? another frozen pizza?" but I digress.

So on to the next step in my life. We shall call it.....PHASE TWO! Muuuuhahahaha.

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So it's no mystery, I have been in a sort of lull lately. It's not one of those lulls where I drop everything and say screw it, no no. It's more one of those "what is the next effing step?!!?" lulls.

Okay, "lull" just lost it's meaning.

I've reached a sort of cross roads. I need to dive head first into my writing, drawing, photography, etc and really commit to this whole project or consider my options with a full time job...or just keep doing what I'm doing.

What's my goal? To be creative full time. This is for sure. What's holding me back? The non-creative side of my brain. The side that says "Yes, but how will you pay the bills sweetie?". I hate that side. I have been slowly poisoning it with positive thoughts and pencil drawings, but the process is slow and excruciating. Also, I'm pretty sure anyone with a strong creative side knows that pushing positive thoughts on yourself is like trying to convince a parent that heroin is good for their baby.

I think that bizarre comparison just came from my "creative" side.

I am particularly lucky. After next week I will have almost 2 entire months to throw myself into my craft, whatever that is, full time. I have saved enough for the rent, now I just hope I saved just enough sanity (or is it insanity?) to actually create and come up with some good ideas.

Here's hoping!

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Alright, no more excuses! I finally have my life back, rehearsals are over and my schedule is completely back to normal. So what's with my lack of motivation? Why can I still not seem to pull my head outta my butt and get to typin'?

I guess I'm still just settling in. I don't ever want to be away from my blog, photos and drawings for this long again. I feel like I made a lot of progress and then just threw it all out the window in a month. I'm not ready for ANOTHER clean slate, I was just starting to draw on my new one.

Anyhow, hopefully this will mark the last of my so-busy-with-work excuse posts. Time to kick it back into high gear!

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When I started this creative journey of mine, I have to tell you, I honestly had no idea how much joy, happiness and fulfillment it would bring me. I mean, I always knew it would be a positive adventure, but nothing as amazing as it's been in such a short time.

First, as I've mentioned briefly before, I have met some absolutely amazing, creative and wonderful people. This is bigger for me than it sounds. I tend to be only surrounded by the people I work with because of the hours we spend together, which isn't necessarily a bad thing, but a girl's gotta expand her horizons sometime. For some reason, until now, I've always been somewhat shy online, which is really odd, especially considering I was online long before most people even knew it existed. I just can't bring myself to put on a mask when I'm logged on. I'm always me, that's just how it is. But in the last few months I've opened up more and it's really paid off. The people I have "met" have been inspirational, funny, comforting and kind. Since I've been somewhat away the last few weeks, I have missed them dearly.

Second, I have truly seen myself grow as an artist. And I'm not just talking about skill here, I'm talking about my imagination expanding and appreciating new things. I see things a little more clearly and my thoughts tend to be a tad less scattered. I've actually stopped worrying so much which, you gotta believe me, is a HUGE feat.

And now, the biggest compliment and accomplishment I've ever had, the picture in this post. You may remember this drawing from my doodle a day for a year project. A bunch of the ladies I "hang" with online really loved it which was enough to make me happy, but then one of the gals (zoogal to be specific) actually had it tattooed on her back (as you can see). This is gigantic for me. More than even she may realize. I've had a lot of friends in the tattoo industry and have always admired and envied the ability to give someone a piece of art forever and ever.

Honestly, it touches me so much I could cry a little. But I'm not going to because my head is so stuffed, I'll regret it later. Oh, btw, that's why I've been so quiet lately....warding off a terrible head cold as well as battling the ridiculous work hours.

Anyhow, to Zoogal and all of my friends online, you mean more to me than you know and I am grateful to have met you and look forward to sharing many more days with you! Cheers!

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This is one of the few drawings I decided to keep up on my stream. Normally I reset the date on all of my doodles on flickr so they end up at the back of the stream. Only because I use it more as a place to show off my photographs and not my drawings. However, this one I am genuinely proud of and even more so now after the wonderful response it received.

Not only have people enjoyed viewing it, which is a true honor, but I've even had a request to use it as a tattoo which completely floors me. Never have I been asked such a thing and I would probably cry a little if they actually decided to use it. Cause you know, I can be emotional sometimes. But for the love of everything holy, don't go telling people that. I have a reputation to uphold here.

Anyhow, it's working title is Airheads (compliments of the mom unit). This drawing has taught me to relax a lot. I stare at it and see flaws, mistakes, things I could change. Others look at it and like it, think it's clean and don't point out it's ookies. This has really confirmed my belief in art being all in the eye of the beholder and also taught me to take a step back and just enjoy it for what it is. After all, when I look at other people's stuff, I never say "Hey, that eye is a little off isn't it". No, I view it for the whole. It's hard to understand that other's probably do that too.

It's true, I am my toughest critic.